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April 2, 2005

MIssin' my tabulas..... posted at02:11 AM motiliciousfairy hey people...I miss everybody, it's been a long while!!!wheew!!! namiss nyo ata ako ha? Well, I was so busy, I mean very very busy. I had so many deadlines in school plus the pressure in work...waaaaahhhh...career woman/ creative writing student po akow.....I was thinking if I'll stop this tabulas account or make a new one. Ndi kasi ako mka upload ng photos sa account na ito!!!kakainis....well I miss my tabulas family.....U take care everybody..If I have time, i'll be visiting your blogs..okies? 2 comments

February 22, 2005

Fishy? posted at11:43 AM motiliciousfairy I admit. I have this huge crush on him...and I'm talking about Joseph-- the oh so cute but living-in with someone and has a daughter already. Silly but true...You know things like when your in high- school, When the guy--ur crush will pass bu you, you can't resist that unexplainable smile. And that joy that leaps within...Ang saya! ..Im now feeling what a high- school feels...Things also like, whenever he would just say hi, and it already means he likes you, or if he asks your cellphone number it would mean, he will cort you or better yet when he will say I like you, it would already mean I love You??hahaha....an inch word from our crushes would already mean tons of big fish....I dunno what I am talking about but I know I am Contented. Not happy but Contented. Ralston and I had talked few minutes ago over the phone and we had a great talk. It's been a long while and I know I can't change the fact that we've been together for 4 years and that means 4 years of togetherness--of friendship. So we talked about how's life now for both of us and chu-chu and chu- chu... Question: What will you do when you see your ex- boyfriend's ex- crush? Louella, Ralston's ultimate crush came to cross my path today. When I went to diliman and we were split during that time. He met Louella and discovered her to be his next girlfriend but it didn't happen because when I went back here in Davao and he saw me, the feelings was still there according to him. Louella asked How's him...nautal ako. Obviously, i was helping myself to explain....But the words came to my mouth were " OO kami pa".... Yeah, you'll ask why I said that, I don't know. I just want to make our conversation short. Louella got a boyfriend now, While me is still striving to survive with reality. But I'm okay. I'm definitely okay. 3 comments

February 20, 2005

ME posted at02:15 PM motiliciousfairy No boyfriend. No sleep. No shopping. No new shoes. No new bag. No pad paper. No ruler. No new best friend. No new story. No personal computer yet. No television life. No radio life. No suitor. No mutual understanding with my new crush. No visit to my grandparents. No negative comments heard as of the moment from my managers. No customer complaint on the parties I hosted. No enemy. No new blog-friend. No movie life. No quarrels with my parents. No new poem. No new essay. No new crush. (aside from Joseph) No new school booked for community visit. No current close guy friend. NO NEW ME! 2 comments

February 16, 2005

Stories... posted at04:14 AM motiliciousfairy wow..it's been a long while tabulas...there are lots of things happened. I don't know If I'll be able to store them all here but I wish i could..... First, let me greet everyone a Happy valentines Day--belated. How was my Valentine?hihi..nagduty ako. I was in- charge in the Acoustic Night held @ the second floor of Mcdonalds. Good for me that I haven't seen any couple that were untolerably sweet each other Because If I did, I guess I've walked- out the store already due to envy. exaggerated! I haven't introduced Joseph yet here in tabulas noh?..okay, Joseph is this chinito guy who works with me in Mcdonald's. He's a crew at the same time in- charge with Community Visits because he knows how to drive. He's responsible with the Mcdonalds Van that's why. During the first weels of being together..okay. I admit that I have a huge crush on him already. Kasi naman po, He's undeniably cute. ..And she treated me like we've known each other for so long already. He let me feel that I won't feel out of place when were together...There waa a time na namis-interpret ko na sweetness niya sa akin, until such time I also observed he's doing the same thing with other girls in Mcdo. Then One day, ala lang I just got insane telling myself na konting sweetness pa at maiinlove na talaga ajko sa kanya,,pathetic noh? Then God gave me such trial, After I set these staements..We had this conversation.. Joseph: Mot, magkano nga magpa-bday party?( wondering if he could get a discount since he works in the company.) Mot: Naks! birthday mo na seph?kelan? Joseph: Ay anak ko, mag-one na... Then parang linya sa mga fictions na ginagawa ko--Then there was silence. I wasnt able to recover after that dialogue, thank God that Jessie was with me to give Joseph right answers. So I told myself to stop dreaming and evaluating. There'll be no chance of him liking me...or me falling in love totally with him..hanggang pa- crush2 na lang ako nito..parang high- school noh? Then yun! Till now ganun ang nangyayari..I'm happy being with him. We've been always a partner in Community Visit, since I'm the division head and he drives the van. We've been talking things about each other..I know him more and more each day same as him with me..I've discovered that he's not yet married but they are living together and he already graduated From a Management course. That he wants to amnage Mcdonalds someday. And because of these often companionship in our tasks, there are already instances in which He would call Leigh and Michelle as Mot.( weehh..kinikilig namn ako...) I know I can't be the person that would fall in love with him, knowing that my anak na siya at asawa..Lam ko crush- crush lang ito...Hayaan na natin..Masaya naman eh. Anyways, everbody knows na wala na kami ni Ralston ( first time na na-mention ko name niya dito.) Well, I already assumed na wala na nga kami because we haven't seen each other, we haven't talked or even send each other text messages. I already accepted the situation. It was painful from the beginning but since I have a work plus the pressure in UP, it helps me to ignore the hurt. Last Valentine day, he sent me a text message that for so long I want to hear fom him. He was sorry for the hurt he caused me. He was sorry for being a fool....I didnt sent a reply because deep inside I was crying. I cried because he became a part of me that I thought would complete me, my whole life. I was sorry for him because we haven't got the chance to talk the problem personally, I mean if we do mean for a break-up..I guess we needed a talk...But I guess it's too late already. I moved on. but the years we spent together would remain in me and would be the parts that would make me feel complete...... Add a Comment

February 6, 2005

waahhhhh.... posted at02:33 AM motiliciousfairy Im counting now...1, 2, 3..... Will I still move?....Do I still know how to count?.....Do I still know myself?....Am I still the old motmot- the cool dudette?...Am I still me?....Am I giving up?..Or I can do better than that?...suicide?...yoko!.....BUt will I ever do things now outstandingly?....d ko alam!.....I'm tired?...yes i am!.....So what are you waiting for?....Stop?....move on?...ano ba!!!...U think u can still do things?...siguro....but what if things would fall on the way you hate it to?....What will you do?...continue?....and stop again??....and continue??....Are you really like that???...I mean are you really insane?stupid?crazy?ambitious?negative????? ...Are you really weird?sarcastic?mean???? Now what?...What will happen to you now?....Will you live life to the way should be?....or live life of how life works for you?......What does your life mean by the way???......Are you still alive??....Do you still value life????WAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you still know what life really means???!!!!! 4 comments